Awareness

I feel disconnected and fragmented in all the best ways. Having the ability to separate myself from everything is truly amazing. I don’t always sit there and pay much attention to it. It’s more like, I flow and just enjoy life as it unfolds. Isn’t this what life is truly about? The experience.

I was in this phase for a while, or maybe I teeter on the edge of it based on the day. I mean, I am human after all. Well, at least while here for this experience. So this phase I was in... Yea, basically overthinking as well as not focusing as I know I should was the gist of this phase. You know, like picking up my phone and just losing all senses and choosing  to scroll or go off and search for something I actually should be letting go to the Universe. I know there is an art to this balance thing that I am working towards mastering. It’s just about placing my focus in the proper area all the while staying in the right frequency. I do also know that it's about human experience. So, I actually need to have the experience...Right?

I mean, I am the artist. You do get what I’m saying right? Well, I truly hope so. 

The thing is I do get distracted, and yes it is often. I see something shiny and my eyes turn towards it like a child seeing a rainbow. I stay in the admiration of its beauty until someone calls me back to reality. The truth is, I prefer the rainbow reality. The pause. The moment given to something and seeing the beauty in it. I can watch a parent with their children and see the beauty of the moment they are experiencing, the memory they are making. I can watch someone walk their dog and pause to talk to it as I find myself smiling and laughing at the reaction the dog gives back or just how the owner gives its puppy baby valid attention. Sometimes I even become the narrator of their story and do voice overs for both the dog and the owner. That’s always fun. I know I see and feel much more than most and I find that to be an absolutely beautiful thing. I have learned to give myself the space to have these experiences and not feel like I’m just wasting my time. I learned not to scold myself for drifting off and allowing my attention to veer over to something else. I just enjoy the moment that I am in. 

When it comes to my life, I am trying to be most patient with myself and try to just observe, allow, realign and flow. You know, feel it, hold the space for it and then let it go. I am not my thoughts or the emotions I may be feeling at any given moment or over any situation. I am just a vessel having an experience. Yea, so I know this sounds insane to most people. Possibly? Well maybe to some of you out there, but If you’re even looking at my site or reading these blog posts then you may in some way be able to relate.

Anyway, this is just random awareness that I felt come through and I wanted to share. Nothing more than a moment to let go and write what is flowing through me. I literally just veered off and picked up my phone. See, I told you. Anyway, I read this post on IG that said… “Whatever makes you weird is probably your greatest asset.”  These are not my words but something that I completely relate to so I wanted to share it with you. I love the fact that I have my own quirks and things about me that are not like others, you know the parts that we tend to not let others see, or just anyone for that matter. Well, now I choose to be me in all of my glory and as authentic as can be. Some may call it weird, I call it perfect exactly as I am. So, Keep being weird. Create and Shine in any way you feel, You are perfect exactly as you are.

Love,

Fayth